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[elasgottoomuchfreetime]

I was today years old when I found out that the german voice actor of Castiel, also voices the Once-ler.

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[torchickentacos]

who needs encouraging fathers when you can get fortune cookies that tell you you're doing a good job and that it'll all be okay

[frobby]

okay so ive been into jeweler richard for a while now, i watched half of the anime when it came out and found it unremarkable (now it fills me with rage) but i didnt start actually thinking about it until the manga came out and i actually read it. I stand by my reccomendation of the manga and in still looking forward to reading it when more volumes come out (volume 6 got delayed till next year). I knew OF things in the LN and they intrigued me but i wasnt really into light novels cuz i read on my phone but i didnt know how to get books(for free) on there. Untill i started reading orv that is(thanks dokja). Its really not that important for the story but recently ive been ravenously reading the jeweler richard LN (im on volume 5 now in the past like weekish)

And uhhhhh wow its so good. Like acutally good i totally get what people say about seigi now he is absolutely unreliable about......everyone around him. This is my reccomendation if you watched the anime and liked it or read them manga pleaseee read the light novels. It is the ideal JR experience

[chasm-connected]

chronic pain side of tumblr can someone explain why naloxone would be recommended for fibromyalgia when it inhibits endorphins? i think im using those. for the fibromyalgia.

i think i need to switch doctors? like i was thinking that anyways with how she talked to me but looking things up this seems wrong.

please feel free to correct me i want to be wrong but mostly i want to understand.

[gremzon]

I might have OCD actually

[catwafers]

i've been rotating postcanon knives in my mind for several months at this point, but i don't think i'll be able to draw his story beyond what i have already. so here's a glimpse of what's taken over my mind

(no romance included)

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

[weaponizedmoth]

Been meaning to do another one of these for a second, but didn't have any cool outfit pics--until I remembered these blurry pics I had from 2021 that I could never do much with. Libbyframe is the inspo for these as usual,✨️

[shdwtouch]

popping in temporarily to remind yall that. you can just make ocs. and show them to people. its okay if you aren't writing them and just think they're neat. that's valid. I know I needed to be reminded that I could just. create for the hell of it, not because I wanted to roleplay or people to engage with me. and honestly I think we should support people who make ocs even if they aren't roleplaying and just want to talk about their blorbos. that's okay. ocs are not exclusively used for roleplay or writing purposes, and that's okay.

especially in terms of people not having the time or energy or social confidence to roleplay. everyone who struggles is valid. and it's valid to acknowledge that maybe you just want to talk about your ocs. in general, to others, with others if they have ocs of their own. it's not just about the writing, basically. I hope this makes sense.

sending love ♡

[ribcageeater]

Im probably not going to post anything for a while I'm sorry. I love you guys

[13eyond13]

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[ravenkings]

does anyone remember the film girl with a pearl earring (2003) in which scarlett johansson plays a servant girl in the netherlands in the 1600s caught in a love triangle between colin firth (playing famous dutch old master painter vermeer) and cillian murphy (playing her callow butcher boy lover)?

[bandbullets]

2023 아트파이트 5번째그림(5th attack) for @snowthedemonfox https://artfight.net/attack/4584684.i-am-going-to-slam-dunk-you-into-the-twlight-truck

[storm-of-feathers]

I'll never understand how bpd was like a Trendy thing to have on this website bc actually having it sucks so bad

[britneyshakespeare]

ppl will just reblog posts w outright historical misinformation in them